I'm no Ezra Pound!

In another random burst, I'd like to add:

I have resolved to be direct with what I feel/want (but discreet) versus making things obscure.
No more ultimatums where I threaten you with something or I quiz you and make bets until things work out in my favor.
I've learned that most often, they never do.
So, if you are a shitty boyfriend I will tell you why I feel this way versus threatening to break up with you and then never following through.
I don't need to obscure things, I am not Ezra Pound for God's sakes.
So why do I do that?
Why do I make up little ultimatums in my head?
"If he kisses me in the next 5 minutes I will forget he ever kissed another girl"
Am I insane?

Anyway, I am not basing our relationship on these ultimatums or wishes at 11:11.
I love you, and you say you love me.
You are the only guy who makes me happy.
That's all I need.