Suitcase Reduction Timez

I am almost done with everything that I needed to get done...I just have to finish packing (and unpacking since I have waaaay too much stuff) and then double check my list.

I am happy to be going home but at the same time I am sad because I will miss Etoiles <3 and I will miss Tony.
I am also still upset about the fact that he won't block her on MSN. It makes me self-conscious. I know I can't stop him from talking to her and I need to let it go, plus she made it clear that she doesn't want to be with him...but I have the horrible little voice in my head telling me that the only reason he has her on MSN and Facebook is because he wants to be with her (and creep her profile, etc).

Tony, are you not happy with me?
Are you mad because I somehow coax you into driving me into the city or all the way to Brampton?
I am thankful for everything you did for me in the past couple of weeks.
I made you take me on all these crazy errands and help me study for my exams.
I wish I had more time to spend with you before I go back to New York but tomorrow is our last day.

I also wish I could bring Etoiles with me, but our summers are already set.
I am looking forward to our big Fourth of July thingy & I can't wait for my birthday (20!!)

Anyway, I am rambling on and on when I should be more productive. I need to finish the laundry people!
Ugh, the Josephine thing is still bugging me though. He says he will take her off but I know he won't.
It's the thing in the drawer, you think you've tucked it away but it keeps rattling OR you forget about it for a little bit and then one day you are looking for your keys or a paper clip, just rummaging through the collective junk of your life and then BAM there it is. It was waiting there the whole time. You can't forget about it because it won't let you.