Cross your fingers.

There's more to the story that I didn't know before.
But I won't be the only one that ends up broken hearted.
You think that you've finally gotten things settled down,
When suddenly a new twist on an old problem has started.

Whether this means starting over or not,
Cross your fingers for me that things turn out right.
And whether it means losing all that I've got
Cross your fingers for me that I still know how to fight.

Not so excited about Tony visiting anymore. I think its inevitable that we are going to break up again. The trust issues are too much. I can't stop thinking about him and Josephine and I keep finding out more things that make it harder to believe that I wasn't his second choice. He doesn't talk to her anymore, but I have a feeling he would rather be with her and that I ruined things between them. He is coming in a few days and we are going to talk. I am sure when I see him I will melt and turn soft and forgive him for anything and everything because thats what usually happens. It's easier to be harsh when we are far apart. We should take a poll on what I end up deciding by the end of summer.

Stay together?
Break-up?
UGH.
ihatethis.ihatethis.ihatethis.ihatethis.ihatethis.